I don't really think that im a nice person but i'm pretty much sure that i'm not a cruella-devil....haha. lol that is a joke. But, usually my attitude is based on how you treat me. I don't care if you white, black, skinny, fat, tall, short or etc. If you nice to me, i'll be nice to you too. As simple as that.
2:Am I doing what i really want to do?
Yes. I really hate it when others is tell me what to do. God, this is my life, not yours! mind your own business. Even when my dad, my mom or my brother tell me what to do; sometimes i don't do it because i won't and maybe i have another reasons. Yes, i'm a stubborn person. {Don't judge me, Only God can judge me}
3:What am i grateful for?
I am grateful for all i have. I am grateful of what God do to my life. Even when i'm sad, having a hard times, got a broken heart, mad or anything else that can makes me feel like 'i-don't-want-to-live-in-this-planet-anymore' I'm still grateful of what God do to my life, there must be a meaning of every moment
that i've been through. God knows the best for me.
4: Do i work hard?
Hahaha! that must be something that have a strong sense (For me). I think, until this time i never work hard, probably i've been really disappointed my parents, or even my family. I have no idea of what i did to my life.
5:What do i need to change about myself?
Omg, that is a lot more than you can think. I'm stubborn, selfish, easily get angry, there's so much vice that i had in my personality. But honestly, i want to live a life in a new perspective. really.
6:Have i hurt others?
YEEEESSS! i feel really sorry for that. I've been hurting a lot of people. And sometimes, i really don't mind about feeling of others. Maybe i was a b##tard, i think so.
7:What is my biggest fear?
My biggest fear? it was absolutely dark. I mean, the real darkness. This world is full of crime, rape, stealing, fierce competition, LIES. Really... i can't even describe it. I have a weird sense of thinking; but this is my life, my world.
8:What am i ashamed of?
honestly, i ashamed of my life; i have so much misery. But i usually force to fake a smile, a laugh because sometimes I don't want others know when i'm in pain, in hard times, or else. I am afraid to give my expression to others. People say that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger but the truth is; what doesn't kill you messed you up mentally; you better recognize what is real. And i've learned the hard way.
9:What is the most foolish thing i've ever done?
I do stupid things everyday, i think. So i guess this far i've never done the most foolish thing because stupid things is became my habit now; especially when i get comfortable with someone. {i'm a teenager. So, what's the matter?}
10: Where is the place you would love to visit?
AAAAAAAAAH! I WANT TO ROVING THE EUROPE! ESPECIALLY PAAAARIS! You know, paris is the most beautiful place in da world. {For me, i think} Roma, Belgium, Denmark, Italy, Germany and a lot more of lovely place! someday, i would love to be able live in one of those lovely place!
11: What am i most proud of?
I am proud of me. I am proud to just being myself and to enjoy the whole world with the people i love. As simple as that. Happiness, joyful, grateful. I'd rather to play in a sand with my family and being an idiot with my cousins writing some weird name in a sand than to have all stuf that i wanted but being alone or falling apart with the people i love. I don't want to lose them!
12: What was the toughest time in my life?
i guess it was when my parents threatened by divorce. Really, i am so depressed. And as you know, i've got a mental illness because of it. But i don't want to talk about it, i almost over it. Doctor, friends and my family are supporting me always :]
13: What is the craziest thing i want to do?
First, i want to do ANYTHING for education. You know, i want to change the world. {Don't judge me} but i have to change myself first. And second, i want to travel the world with the people that i love. Seriously! i really want to do those thing! {God bless me :]}
14: Do i constantly dwell on the past?
Sadly, i really have to say yes. I have "someone" on my past that probably i have to call him "My first love" it was like 4 years ago when we first met and i still don't get over it. And the last time (For now) that i met him, it was like 2 years ago! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH WITH ALL I HAVE. Omg, i am insane because of him. This is totally weird...
15: Do i forgive myself?
Nah. thats it. I still can't do that and i think i won't. I always think i am the worst, i always do the wrong and i am a b##tard. I don't even know why i can say this, but once you feel it you will get it. {I am a weirdy-foolish}
16: Do i care about what others think about me?
Absolutely no. And i really hate it when people is judging me like i was the worst, the wrong one and always be the one who to blame; Only God can judge me. And whatever they think about me, they didn't know the real me, they didn't know what i've been through. And yeah, i'm still living my Goddamn life. You should know that.
17: Do i let other people's negativity affect me?
ABSOLUTELY NO! i don't mind about what others think. They just want to let me down, but i can give them pain. They should mind their own business; this is my life, not theirs. So stop mind my business and think about your own life!
