I've been getting so much trouble and bad things lately, but i still be grateful to God because he still give me chance to live this life and also, i knew he is planning for the best to me. I promise i will be more happier and be more thankful to God.. because, December was the month of joy, happiness, and to finish what you started. My favorite month, and, i guess, everyone's in. oho.
And well, i don't want much things in December. Actually, i just want my life to get soooooo much better than before and, (do not) being such a pyscho (again). JEEZ! but, really. I don't want to get so over but i mean in this case is.. i don't want to cry for no reason anymore, suicide season (wait,what.)... hurt myself and blaming myself because other's people mistakes.. and taught why not i just kill myself, so this fvvckin situation could dissapear? and i'm just like, "Depression isn't an act, eating disorders aren't a phases, suicide isn't a coward's escape, self-harming is not a cry for attention. Stop acting like you know everything. The truth is, you don't know sh!t." (Do i get bonus points if i act like i care?) jeez.
I know. It's all about my fault.. over-thinking. This mind has ruined my life so deep. ftw.
And yeah, the point is.. in this lovely month, i just have to be relax and not get over thinking anymore. I had to try to enjoy my life and do not give a sh!t of what will other people think about me. Because, i knew... in the end, all of this bulls just like a flavour of sense to add more colors in my life. And i should be so grateful to God, because i know he gave me this situation, because he wants to teach me how to learn from my mistakes, and, he wants to give me strength for preparation to lead this cruel life. This is just a lessons, and, also... this was just the beginning of life.
God bless me always. ☮
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