What i should have said.

"i never told you, what i should have said. 
 no, i never told you. I just held it in. 
 And now...
I miss everything about you."
Yes, i really really feel lonely at the time. 

Dear YOU, i know we don't have much time. I don't mean literally, i mean you're out buying some ice cream and just have fun with your friends and you'll be home soon. But i have a feeling, that i should have said, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me, how you drive me nuts. You made me better, by standing here by my side whenever i'm sad, whenever i'm happy, whenever i need you. And for that, i am eternally grateful.... literally. If you can promise me one thing, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you will try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my Bestest best friend. I'm a woman with no regrets, how lucky am i to have you by my side? you made me, me. But i'm just one chapter in yours, There will be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. I love you and this feeling will never change for you, i know this probably much to late to said, but i mean it. I do really really hope that you'll be happy with or without me, just promise me you will always remember me, and remember that you (have been) mine. I know our relationship didn't last, but that doesn't mean the feeling have to fade away. And i know, that, sometimes when people grow, they are grow apart. But that doesn't mean love that once shared wasn't true and real. I believe in you, i believe in us. It just, feels like half of me just fade away, it feels like something is missing, something is gone. You are my permanent unfinished tattoo, and i will always remember ours. Thanks for the memories, thanks for the precious 6 months that you gave to me. And i know, we have to appreciate the simple things God has blessed you with. My prayers will always be with you, no matter what. 

Promise me you will be happy. 

P.S I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

yeap, i don't know how to show my feelings, it just.. feels.. half of me just gone. I never felt nothing in the world like this before.
It hurts, like hell. Really.